I deleted the last journal because... what's the point of asking for help. Most of the people I talk to don't seem to be into anything other than Pokemon or video games in general, almost none of them seem to be into anime or anything else I like. It was only this year that I started to get back into anime through my college's anime club, and then I got into the anime series "Attack on Titan" and enjoyed it, but now I don't really have any anime to watch because I can't really find any. I'm kinda starting to lose interest in Pokemon lately, especially since, while it's 3 months away, I may not have enough money to buy either version of OR/AS, let alone both, combined with some of my personal opinions on the current status of the franchise.
I never received help on learning a second language, since most of my watchers only know English. I have no siblings or friends in real life, and I unfortunately have to drop out of college this year because of financial issues. In fact, financial issues prevent me from doing so much stuff ever since my father was laid-off from his job last month. We had to drop HBO and Starz because of both costs and the fact my mom claims they only show TV shows now instead of movies (because HBO apparently now spends their entire time showing reruns of Game of Thrones like how Nickelodeon spends their entire time showing reruns of Spongebob), we can't get Netflix on our TV because we don't have a smart-TV or any device linked to our TV that has internet connection, we would need a Blu-Ray player, which my parents won't get because my family still uses VHS tapes. Heck, we can't afford Netflix or Hulu because my dad is still unemployed.
Our family only has one vehicle, which dad needs for what work he can find. I have a license, but my dad has the truck most of the time. I'd ask my parents for help, but they either have stupid solutions or spend most of their time complaining. In fact, that's all my parents do anymore is complain all of the time, responding to all their problems by yelling, screaming profanities every other sentence whenever something doesn't go their way, sometimes acting really childish and almost always put the blame on someone else for their problems, especially if the person they're blaming is liberal. Let me just say that I don't get along well with my parents. They can be rather anti-social at times, and it affects things in certain ways.
I just feel trapped, like I have nowhere to go. The internet is the only way I have access to the outside world, and even then, I often feel unnoticed. I haven't had a good summer, in fact, I haven't had a good year overall, nothing but bad things have been happening to me. I just wish things would get better...